Thursday, December 21, 2006
YEah, life sucks!
First of all GOD, where the fuck have you been... I dunt feel you in my life anymore. Its so hard to cope with life especially with no family and friends to turn to and now even my own girlfriend can't be trusted. I hope you're reading this God, i hate YOU! ok! i really really do. I pray always for a better life for my family and I and everyone who i know and dunt know rememeber thos lines, and i pray for forgiveness for all of everybodies sins and all of my sins and i pray for everyone to be cured of their illness and never fall sick again and i pray for those people who are poor like me to be rich and live a wealthy healthy life and i have prayed for Lorene and i to get along very well and love each other and never let go and be faithfull and stuff and i prayed for good grades for my exams and help finanacially but wtf God, i dunt think i got any of them. But instead i got my friends laughing at me and treating me like some stranger, and i got my bestfriend lost in his own wolrd of wealth and he becomes so big headed and self-centred that i do not dare look in his eyes not even once and i always have this hate inside of me when i am around him. He became my foe...My mum and dad starts to shout at on another and gets me and my brudders involve at times and so much tears running down our faces like as if its a war and such an uncomfortable place to be in which we all call home. and is so no nice to feel. I sometimes wish that if onlie all these bad moments would appear as happy moments since they come out so often. my Family is soo disfunctional right now and i used to think that i could help but i was wrong. Each time I say something or try to help just keeps me going back to one thing and that is pain, heart felt pain... it hurts inside. its the same pain each time Lorene hurts me. And so much for curing my sickness, instead i get sick everyday... WTF man God, i dunt know how you hear my prayers but i think the delivery system up there aint workig. and earth is in hell... Well, i see my friends having the time of their lives and i cant help to get jealous and yes i do miss the times when i was fit and popular. My days are numbered now. It all seems so clear that this is my times to suffer. Suffer for some reason which i do not know about, probably the bad things i've done in life. i get it all back in one blow and i really hope this is the onlie one blow. I am at the verge of being so full of hate and i am scared that the devil reaches to me. I keep bringing myself back to the light but i still mix around with the devils adocate and i clearly see who they are but yet I still walk and talk with them. Its strange how unfair and cruel this world gets. I may have failed some of your test God, but do i deserve this.Lastly, My dear Lorene who has just used me and make me feel like this. Adding on to the pain i once had forgotten of. I was merely trying to help her in her work and some fun after that drove me little sleep, so how was i not to feel tired... i tried dear God, my very best to stay awake. It was so fucked up and i even made her happy by doing against my own will. But there sadly isn't love there, she does not apprecitae it at all. She onlie says it but i can never feel it. Its a cruel world.I just fought with her on sms and it has spoiled my day and made me even more sad than before. I really wish she could love me as much as i love her. Cos yeah i love her alot but the fire is getting smaller each day i see her... i could never tell her i love her and mean it becos its something we say everyday and she always thinks its a usual "yeah i love you" thing. We fight almost everyday and its becoming unneccesary and she is becoming unreasonable. i have so much hate stored inside for her. It pains me to know this too. really hate you God for doing this... FUCK YOU OK GOD! You piece of shit. WHy cant you guide me, show me a sign, anything tha would help me... i feel like a failure and i have so many problems up in my head,...Why have you done this to me. i hate myself. I feel like a failure i life.I try to be a good person and I try to make people happy. When was the last time someone made me happy instead. Happy for one full day without even getting a little angry.. I never had those kinda days but i know people have had themI am jealous and full or remorse and i am strating to type rubbish...you have to excuse me as i am not in the right state of mind right now. Well i really hope this draft makes others feel how fortunate they are when they think they are now. This is currently the life i live. Amen!
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 9:06 PM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Hey dear,
i know that you're reading this and firstly i would like to tell you that no word/words can describe how much i love YOU Lorene and no word/words can descibe the tremendous amount of how i feel for you dear. I love you so so much and nothing can stop me from loving you.
Ok yeah people, its my burdae.... and i feel 18. I am legal now... hehehe.. well today kinda sucked actually... almost all my close friends forgot my birthday was today and yeah this may sound really sad but my parents almost forgot my birthday just like last year and they are rather "bo chap" about me turning 18. I swear that i will not treat any of my children like tt in future. It is rather hurting and i even have to fight with my mum in the morning just because I wanted the door to be close when i sleep. Cos every time the door opens, i will awake.. Im kinda dejected now that it is the end of my 18th birthday and my parents just dont give a dam... actually im so so sad and hurt inside i just wanna tell them off what sort of lousy parents they are... On top of that, i paid 7$50 c for a cab to school just to find out that there were no lessons... lucky i have my friends to cheer me up. Anand, my so called best friend did not call me out anywhere or bring me out anywhere. well i dunt no, maybe he thinks tt im out with Lorene... all i know is i feel so hurt now, basically because my parents are preparing to sleep... i would feel alot better and appreciat it if they could at least give me a hug or something like tt but no... i dunt belong in their good books anymore... i have to be strong and independent in order to get over this rubbish... its just m birthday TIm, no big deal... just my 18th birthday... hahahha, i sound so attention seeking. anyway, fuck mum and dad for hurting my feelings and fuck all those bastard friends for forgetting my birthday... I hope my angel Lorene goes to heaven... I bless her with all my birthday luck... i LOVE her so so much....I hate mum and i hate dad.. all i got in the end when i got home was their stinking moody faces and not even a gesture of actknowlegment... im feeling very hurt.... PLs LOrene dearest, pls pls never give up on me even when i ask for a breakup because you should know my temper always last long some reason or another.. I turn into some kinda beast and start hating everything... LOL... its funny but something not to be played with people... hahhhahhaha.
My dear Lorene, really touched my heart... She came to my doorstep at 830am and woohoo with my birthday noodles and a yummie-tummie choc cake... Not to forget my very precious giftshe got me.A warcraft battlechest.... WOoooooooooHOoooooooo, we spent the morning together and she was just simple wonderful. she was the best la...
My dad on the other hand, forgot my birthday and gave me and Lorene a grumpy stare as usual... He is always a jerk... i really fread to be like him when i grow up.. I think he has failed as a father.. sighs... my mum, well she passed... but the thing is, she doesn't love me... i am serious... i feel absolutely no love from either of them... I mean, i try to be nice to them and i try my best to compromise but have they even ever spared a thought of how i'd feel.. I dunno if what im saying is correct because im just devastated at what has happend today and the people who claim to be so close to me are so actually so far... i hold a grudge on each and every one of you...
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 9:55 PM
Friday, June 23, 2006
Yeah we all know that Mr all so pro in pool, Timothy Chow lost to Lucky star Anand in Gutt last night. Terrible lost pls..
$20 dollars gone just like that. sighs. yesterday was a rather horrible day.... I forgot to wish my best friends SA and Jill Happy burfdae and on top of tt i dint attend their party. Very good yeah.. I am so so proud of meself. I even got scolded by the two birthday gurls cos they took my story for bullshit. They dint believe tt i was really sick and my parents couldn't let me out. but its ok, have to accept things like these. Thats Life... Its all about how we deal with our problems...No matter where we go, or who we're with, there will surely be problems lurking around.
Moving on to today... morning was kinda harsh on my body.. wOKE UP At 9am and headed strt for work. Reached there by 11am at keppel club and clogged out to meet my dear at 2pm. so basically i earned 18 dollars.. WAHAHAHAHahahhaha.. sad right yeah... but all the working hrs which i gave away was worth it cos i met my darling... My future dear, my future wife.. Today someone made me happy and pleased.. Her name is Lorene ONg, she is this addorable looking sexy hot creature that goes aroung roaming Singapore and infecting every living thing with her infectuous laughter and plays her little silly childish games hahahhaha she is my baby... MUAcks Love yA!!!
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 8:39 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
I've actually stopped blogging for quite some time already but lately some pretty sexy hot babe kept persuading me to blog....
So babe, this is for you! HeHe
My Life has been rather wonderful lately with this babe named Lorene! WOooooooooHOooooooo Going through my day to day life basically eating, shitting, and desperately trying my best to find time for Lorene and I. K wait, before i say anything else: Lorene is a special person in my heart! ...: Lorene is a nice name! k k k! ................................Moving on---> I shall blog from whatever I remember.
Tuesday 13 June 2006
Memoriable day in my heart... Lorene and I went Sun Tanning, woopeedo!?!?!? Lorene was wearing her sexy vivacious blue colour bikini. So so arousing ppl! Its was a rather experiencing day on the palawan beach at sentosa, we used this banana boat tanning oil. Rubbed all over our bodies and let the heat bake us on the fine sand we were laying on. We felt like pancakes being flipped and cooked. Im so red now dear! And everytime someone slaps me on the back, it hurts like shit... I think we overdid our backs... hahaha! we'll we'll we'll, Lorene looks so much hotter with this new Tan of hers! (LORENE JUST FARTED)!!!!!!! kkk it was all well utill we entered the sea, and lorene was being an ass and was a step prostitute. lol, you know wad im talking about Baby! Was a lil pissed with her in the water.. hahaha cos she was not up to girlfriend Material! kkk after a rather tiring day at the beach, we went to have our lunch at 3 plus at New York Pizza... The pizzas there are huge la, and worth while.. and im sure my girlfriend agrees with me. Am i right lil miss piggy... hehehe.. someone just had to order more,,, eat the pizza not enough, must eat the cheese fries.. EAt untill her yummy explode... on top of that, she couldn't finish!wahahhaha.... kkk we went home after tt, and fought over some stuff... Lorene! :/ I went for training by cab after dropping my baby back home. I did some mad running during training can... Ran with that mad dog anand tll i literally Puked all the new york pizza out.. showered in sch and had my dinner with anand and glenn at Techno coffee shop... hungry like shit due to throwing out my lunch. k tt was tueday...
Wednesday 14 june 2006
Had a bumpy start with my gurl, right Lorene... hehe =/ went out with Dearest Lorene and went watching Russel peters at siglap starbucks. Hehe, someone dint get any of the jokes but she claimed that she wasn't paying attention... haaahaaa sureeeeee.... Oh yar, my dear stepped on mUD! lol she was having a bad day i could see. We ate at the yong tau fu stall at siglap after tt thought we weren't even angry. Just Lorene's was to procrastinate time. Dearly beloved Lorene had to leave early due to mummy and i headed down it to Shawna's house for project together along with Amanda. *BIG SIGHS*Total waste of my, time pls. goodness, those two gurls promised to do the project after i buy chips and coke for them but NOoooooooo, when i bought it back they just ate talk digress laugh shit in their pants fuck around and stone. Onlie when shawna's parents came back then did they get a lil serious but nuthin was done... I was qite fed up and said :"im leaving now" wad a fruitful day.(sarcasms) hahahah went online and started being a lil harsh on Shawna... but all is settled now... Shawna got pranked by a pervert too...hahahhahah dam funny la, and she evem dare thought it was me. I was trying to calm her down... the prank caller was masterbedding over SHAwna.. dam sad though, who would wanna wank over Shawna.
Thursday 15 june 2006
Had work... woke up at 9 and started working from 11 till 830 and reached home at 10. hahahha today is not really a day i would like to keep in my mind. Lorene Should know very well WHY!!! haahhahahaahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahahah anyway dear, I Love you..still do.. THE same amount... TRemendous amount... Cherish you.. appreciate you... Muacks!
You will always be in my heart, though it is rather painful now! =) ps. LORENE, I LOVE YA!!!
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 11:00 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
ressLorene is the hottest. Lorene is the best. Lorene is so sweet. Lorene is a wonderful girl... this entry is dedicated to my one and only love. Lorene Ong sui Yun born on 18 jan. Rabbit girl.
She is the queen she deserves more than some sad sour grapes guy like me. She deserves more than just breakfast in the morning.. SHe deserves to be spoilt. Becos I LOVE HER TO THE MAX LIKE CRAZY.. and im thanking God for each day i have with her. EAch time i get to kiss her. GET to see her smile. TO hug her and hold me so tight. And i am glad we had tt conversation. THanking god for every minute of her... STAY HAPPY MISS RABBIT!!! MY very important one and onlie... *kiss kiss* Muacks Muacks*
PS you eat alot. hehe
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 10:37 PM
Friday, April 07, 2006
kkk as u all know im starting my blogging shit again, well its onlie Lorene but WTH who knows maybe there are my other stalkers out there day by day checking and just hoping for me to one day start blogging again. well teh day has came... hahah happy rite ppl... lol guys and girls... ewww. anyways
6th aprilI woke up in the morning at 9 just like yesterday,went for woke which started from 11am till 8.30. standard... Today was crazy IM dead tired as usual rite now. Anyway I went to meet jon after work(SO so SORRY LORENE)ask yourself this=> if you were an entertainment then why did I ask you to be mine? If you were hurt then all i can say is sorry because in the simplest way to put it its my fault so forgive me... i met jon and was talking bout his KL trip and shit and stuff they did. Real jokers. He said that i should bring Lorene there one day. yar like that day will ever come. I'll bring her anywhere she wants! .................If i could!
Dear Lorene,
I'll make it up to you for the things i've done wrong and i'll try not to get angry at the smallest of problems even if you're at wrong. I need you DAMMIT! ;) I want you to be happy not sad or hurt or disappointed or what so... so pls understand how much you mean to me and how much i treasure you. I'll do anything for you. All you need to do is ask!Im please with you... im in love with you...
yours truly
one and onlie.
TiMoThY
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 12:16 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
Well well, it has sure been some time since i last blogged. LOL
L1R4 ---- 14 wooohoooo, proved my Mum and Dad wrong finally!!!
im a Business/Logistics and Operations management/Marketing boy! he he he its great to know that! Well i guess u all wanna know WHO my girlfriend is rite. Her name is LORENE ONG SUI YUN born on the 18 of jan 1989. She is an Angel!!!!!
but recently...
Like my friend Zan Wei sald, men onlie have two problems. Money and Girls! I think i have both!?!?!?!?!
moneyissues on money has been really bad these days. Mum and Dad cant get the family income rolling. Thats a real big problem cos im affected as well but im finding solutions. i gtg now...
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 9:47 PM
I LIVE TO LOVE LORENE!
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 9:44 PM
